I have not had time to write lately and with the holiday’s upon us, life will only get busier. But I hope to get some blogs up without missing too much time.
This past weekend, I went to bed knowing it was Saturday and somehow woke up believing it was Monday! So first thing I checked my work e-mail and then proceeded with my morning meditation and exercise routine. Before I got dressed for the day I checked my personal e-mail and read my Daily Astro Forecast from Micheal Lennox, Astrologer. The title included the date, November 13 & in the content it read “on this Sunday.” I thought, hmmm, I must have the wrong daily forecast, justifying it in my mind, because he sends them a day early due to membership around the globe. I checked the calendar date & it was the 13th, but I didn’t bother to check the day of the week. Therefore believing I was right, I dismissed it thinking he had a typo. Holy cow – self-denial of the truth! Still dismissing it was Sunday even after that because with all my being, I believed it was Monday & I was set on that. Next I went into the kitchen and my husband expressed his dismay that his NFL team was not going to be televised today, me knowing his team played on Sunday. It was then I looked out the window and said to myself, “is it Sunday?” My mind was blank and I couldn’t connect with justification of how this could be Sunday! I felt blank and somewhat disconnected in every way, it was a bit eery.
Although this is a trivial example at best, it reminds me of how we can be misled in life about truth and how far we go before we are faced to recognize it & if we will allow ourselves to recognize it. Dr. Robert Malone says, “Humans perceive and interpret the world by comparing the information which they receive through their senses to internal models of reality. Our conscious mind does not diretly know reality. It holds a model of what it believes to be true & then compares incoming information to this.” If you are mindful of your spiritual guides, I believe life presents us with information to try to steer us toward the truth when we are off course. But if we just look through the tunnel at what we know and believe, we miss the opportunity to steer back on course to truth, as I did above. At some point, life will blatantly come at us to wake us up if we keep down the wrong path. Thankfully my husband said this to me, because I most likely would have gone to work and who knows how much of my day off I would have missed before I figured it out!
In light of this, what I did do right however, was that I accepted the truth once it no longer could escape me, shifted my reality and went about my day. What we often do is maybe worry something is wrong with ourselves or think negative, critical thoughts toward ourselves about how wrong we were, etc. Take up more of our day creating negativity within ourselves. The truth is, I have been traveling, overloaded at work, not sleeping well & was in process of fighting off a virus before it got ahold of me. Some times we are just off kilter, our energy is low and we get confused.
I have been working very hard the past couple of weeks on flowing with my heart & intuition. Hearing my inner self, but trying to be mindful of the task at hand and accepting what feels right and following it. Letting thoughts or emotions enter into my consciousness, acknowledging it and letting it pass through my mind without fixating. This morning was a longer road to get there, but because I trust that I will find truth in my actions, the truth came before I got too far down we the road. We all have our moments and we need to just course correct at times when we realize we have been lead astray either by ourself or others. Though it can be hard at times to admit we are wrong, it is our path to self-truth and healing. There are a lot of ways we can each want to deny the truth, we all have our thresholds of humility or need to be right. But thankfully life will keep presenting the truth to us as long as we are willing to recognize it and not resist it to the death of ourselves. So it is my hope that if someone is in this position, they will realize that healing comes from facing mistakes and righting wrongs. We also need to show compassion for those that course correct once they face it & find healing. I always believe that seeking forgiveness & if necessary, justice is reached, it is important to move on and heal. Even if you have fallen victim that led to your pain. Let it go and move on.
If you have emotional patterns that cause you pain and you are stuck in it, there are things you can do. I for one have suffered from anxiety on occasion. Sometimes it is perceived unknowns, but others times it is my history. When you feel like you have processed & acknowledge the events that lead to the anxiety, what I have found is the need to just stop the thought/emotional patterns when they start and replace them with how you want to feel instead. Conscious shifting of the mind and emotions. I have reached a point where I just have to make a choice to believe something else or otherwise I am trapped in my anxiety because I can’t understand what it means. It can then have no power over me and I find relief. As long as it feels true in our hearts – the mind and emotions can let go. Otherwise, our mind and emotions will take us down a hurtful path if we hang on to the pain. It is also a great time to reach out to trusted friends or a resource and share your dilemna for insight. It does no good to sink deeper into the pain feeling helpless or to beat yourself up and allow yourself to make yourself sick or feel pain.
Let’s see what the cards say is important when facing our truth and righting our wrongs. I drew a card from the “Oracle of the 7 Energies” by Collette Baron-Reid. The card I drew is “The Land Between”. The essential meaning is being between worlds, learning to be okay while at the threshold of what was and what will be, a time of waiting and evolving, gray areas, something essential yet still in development, metamorphosis. “I say” – this is a place of transition in your spiritual path. When you set intentions to change your life, you enter into a time in life where what you know is not what you desire. The discomfort of transition is a time where you have to allow yourself to feel your way through the dark, so to speak. You have to be open to stutter step, possibly bounce off a wall to learn and understand with grace. Let go of protecting yourself from humility and understand learning is stumbling at times. We usually see this as a difficult time, as being in the unknown is sometimes uncomfortable. But when you break the threshold and see the path and the resources of your goal, it becomes exciting. It is important to understand the process and not get lost in the journey. Because once you have attained the change, every step to enlightenment will be an exciting story to share. If we can learn to grow comfortable in exploring the unknown, the new to find our answers, we can swerve on our path, maybe avoid the extra weight we carry as we set out on our journey to the new reality. But understand, no matter how deep your go before you get to where you want to go has everything to do with how tightly you hold on to what is familiar. The need to know the end result or why your life was disrupted in the first place is not the path forward. Hear these concerns, but stay focused on the goal and seeing what is in front of you. Pay attention to the information that guides you & be open to new information and methods. Remember, the future is being created by what you are doing now. Change can be easier if we allow ourself to flow and trust our guidance. To get in better touch with our guidance requires practicing gratitude for what we have, being mindful of our actions and focus. Letting the negative pass through our minds and emotions so we can keep our energy up to meet spirit half way to connect & heal. Practice belief in having enough!
Peace & Love, Susan